aaaand we're back

After a looooong weekend of self-pity, I've finally found my way back to the surface. I am a terribly emotional person. I'm not sensitive--meaning: I don't get offended easily or cry for no reason. But there are certain things and people in my life that are very important to me and when those things or persons are threatened, I lose it. This weekend I felt as those my law school aspirations and my relationship were on shaky ground. And I cried. For days. I didn't eat or sleep or shower ( hawt right?) For the the entire weekend. I went home to see my mom. I also went to my father's house, because he was feeling pretty low himself. And I tried so hard to let go of all those feelings of loss and anxiety. At 6 am I jumped out of bed and threw some sweats on and drove an hour (from my mom's house) to LoMu's apartment. Luckily, he heard his phone ringing and buzzed me into his apartment. And I cried and he held me and I apologized and he consoled me and forgave me for being such an emotional wreck. And we fell asleep. And when I woke up, it was all better. You see, blogosphere, that is why I love this man. He is the single best thing in my life. Don't get me wrong, I have my own life and my priorities are set, but he gives me the strength and courage to pursue my dreams. He has my best interests in mind, and I would give anything just to make sure that he is safe and happy.

LoMu's birthday is on tuesday but we're celebrating both tomorrow and tuesday. I'm excited to spend this time with him and to spoil him with food, liquor and presents. I will not post again until Wednesday or Thursday. And then not again until after the Inauguration. Hopefully, I'll have lots of pictures for you all.


Abrazos y besos,

Loco.

Prom Queen

Last night, right before bed, LoMu looked at me and said " Loco, I want to give you a ring." Now, if you've been paying attention, you'll know that I have been thinking about us getting engaged for some time now. So to hear him actually say something about 'rings' in a serious tone was exciting.

"Oh really?" I asked, trying to seem completely unfazed.

"Yeah, you know, like a promise ring..." He responded.

My ego fizzled. A promise ring? Aren't we a few years too many past Prom for promise rings?

I don't know, I could be wrong. One of Sano's coworkers and her boyfriend exchanged promise rings and they're damn near middle-aged. I thought it was an incredibly stupid idea. Still do.



Abrazos y Besos,

Loco.

This is What I Mean By Loco.

So, as many of you know, I have this wonderful man (who you all know as LoMu). He looks something like this (note: this is NOT him, its a just a man who looks like him IMO):
Here's an actual picture of him, just so you know I'm not foolin':





Yum.

Anywho, we've known each for something like eight years. We met when he was "talking to" my best friend's younger sister in Middle School. We became very, very good friends and ended up dating in high school. Sadly, I was a scandalous vixen and broke up with him after a blissful 3 months ( yeah right, he was away at boarding school almost the whole time). I went off to college and when I graduated in May, we rekindled the flame. I lurve him.

We recently just started talking about getting engaged. He already refers to me as his "espousa" when he introduces me to friends. And almost every morning when we wake up, he asks him to marry him. Its his way of saying I love you. But its got me thinking. Why not just get engaged now?

I don't know any engaged people. I'm at that age where most of my friends are thinking about it, but haven't met the one or just plain not ready, so it feels a little weird to be thinking about all of this. But, I have found the one (again, hah) and I am ready. As there has not been an official proposal, all of my research has been done in super secret Loco fashion, I don't want LoMu feeling "the pressure", as he likes to call anything that I ask him to do before he's ready to.

This is what I want my ring to look like:
Since I'm in Law School and he's taking some time off from College, we don't have the money for anything extravagant. I found this ring on the Zales website for a super low, affordable price. And its gorgeous. Exactly my taste. The "P.P.F" engraved in band stands for "Past. Present. Future." How perfect? Loves it.

Oh, I also started a profile on the wedding planning website The Knot. If you're engaged or plan to be engaged, its definitely worth a look-see. Its extremely cute and gives you a lot of information in a non-overwhelming fashion. Loves it.

Anyway, I found this dress while looking on that website and its a good idea of what I'd like in a wedding dress:



Let's be honest. I look nothing like this model. I'm a voluptuous, big booty-ed young lady. But I have toned arms, a flat stomach, and a stunning decolletage *snort* I'm so f*cking pretensious for using that word in a sentence. But anyways, I think something like this would be classy but sexy on me. Loves it.

But anyway, thats as far as I've gotten. All this wedding stuff is mildly boring and sort of pointless right now. But I do it anyway. Because that is me. And you love it.


Abrazos y besos,

Loco.

p.s. try not to get use to this frequent posting thing. I'm just bored right now.