Somethings Missing

"I'm not alone, I wish I was/Cause then I'd know, I was down because/I couldn't find, a friend around/To love me like, they do right now." - John Mayer "Somethings Missing"

Happy New Year and all that jazz.

I wish I could write a happy post about all the fun I'm having and all the good things going on in my life. But I'm at a real low right now. And no matter how much I try to push through it, I just can't get out of this rut. Without going too deep into detail, I found out today that my school basically screwed me out of $10,000. Money that I desperately needed to cover my living expenses for this semester. So chances are, I'll have to move back home to my mom's house and commute back and forth every day for the rest of the semester. This is not good. Not good at all. My mom and I barely get along and she lives really fucking far from my school. No, there is no housing for grad students.

To top it off, LoMu and I have been getting into stupid little arguments. About nothing. And I wish he was here for me more. I know that's selfish. He works and all that. But damnit, I'm slowly slipping into a weird spontaneous depression and when I need him to just love me, he's telling me to get over it. I know he loves me but sometimes I just need to hear it, repeatedly. I sound like such a baby but right now I just want to be comforted. And he's not here. And I feel like shit. I'm sorry blogosphere. For being "uh oh" loco and not "jaja" loco. But I've never been good and faking it.


Hopefully I'll be feeling better in a few days.

Abrazos y besos,
Loco.